It's been a while since i have posted. Life has become incredibly busy and a bit of a whirlwind this spring. I had surgery for a hernia in June. Now well
recovered :) and back to the gym, running and rock climbing. I have been thinking lately about how I made some really bad decisions last year that hurt someone i cared for deeply, even though my actions did not necessarily reflect that. I can't seem to quite get over that. I think if the circumstances had been
different, perhaps i would have had the capacity to do what I should have.
Sadly, I didn't.
A friend said I have already atoned for my actions. I don't quite know what to say to that because you can never take back the act, never take back the hurt and the disappointment that will be with that person forever. So, then, what do you do? For whatever reason, its been on my mind daily and I am not sure what that is about, considering its been over a year.
On a completely, separate, but in some ways connected, note-- I am dating an old friend from middle school who i ran into last summer and starting hanging out with for breaks from studying for the bar. For whatever reason, that connection grew and is quite solid at the moment. It's crazy. My last year and a half, 2 and a half years, have absolutely not been what i expected. I would have never predicted this. Par for the course for the "unexpected," it's a guy, dating a guy is something I have really not done since high school. This is also quite the change from, oh, the last decade or so.
I can't complain though. I have a job. My dog is fantastic. My family is loving. My friends are great.
I need to get back to this brief, 2nd Circuit Appeal on a non-compete issue. Lucky for me, it's a super interesting case.
until next time :)