New Year

Surprising that it is almost 2010. Surprising that my father is dead. I still just can't believe he is gone and will be something of my past and not my present or future. I miss him. And i can't believe he made such stupid decisions. Reckless. Absolutely reckless. What was he thinking? Why did money matter so much? I worry I could be the same way in the sense that what if i worry or value money too much? what if i end up being too concerned with accomplishments and sacrifice my time with loved ones and valuable parts of life that cannot be quantified in dollars or accolades?